First will be last and last will be first

I was looking at a picture of ducks who were facing one way, and in the second picture they had done an 180 degree turn, meaning that the first was last and last would be first.  They did a repentance, a Metatonia in Greek.  It’s really hard to make a spiritual turn.  Sometimes we get stuck or backslide.  But this is a process that God is working on with us. We are like a potter’s wheel, we get mashed around and cry and laugh.  Today I was caught crying because I was forced to eat.  I didn’t like it but I ate because of my love for Joey.

Tide to go

Have you ever done laundry?  It’s hard to get out stains.  Well in one translation of the Bible – I don’t know which  it said that Jesus’  clothes were whiter than anyone’s clothes once they are laundered. Now  I am not talking about money laundering which is what Sonny Corinthos is famous for.  I am talkling about the Transfiguration of Jesus.

The Transfiguration

17 After six days Jesus took with him Peter, James and John the brother of James, and led them up a high mountain by themselves. There he was transfigured before them. His face shone like the sun, and his clothes became as white as the light. Just then there appeared before them Moses and Elijah, talking with Jesus.

Communal Laundry can be difficult because you have to share and you don’t want to air your dirty laundry, pun intended.  It feels nice to have your clothes clean and women have it even harder.  So wouldn’t it be cool to have your laundry fresh every day.  So I recommend Tide detergent, but it cannot match Elohim, who is my God, the Creator.

self esteem and selfishness

I was asked to do a an analysis on self esteem – Old English self, seolf, sylf “one’s own person, -self; own, same,” from Proto-Germanic *selbaz (cognates: Old Norse sjalfr, Old Frisian self, Dutch zelf, Old High German selb, German selb, selbst, Gothic silba), Proto-Germanic *selbaz “self,” from PIE *sel-bho-, suffixed form of root *s(w)e-, pronoun of the third person and reflexive (referring back to the subject of a sentence), also used in forms denoting the speaker’s social group, “(we our-)selves” (see idiom).

Trying to define yourself is like trying to bite your own teeth. [Alan Watts]

Its use in compounds to form reflexive pronouns grew out of independent use in Old English. As a noun from early 14c.

Another definition to self is – word forming element indicating “oneself,” also “automatic,” from Old English use of self (pron.) in compounds, such as selfbana “suicide,” selflice “self-love, pride, vanity, egotism,” selfwill “free will.”

Basically self esteem is how you feel about yourself.  I know that when I put make up on I feel better.  It pertains to what you feel about yourself.  Growing up I had poor self esteem and was a  victim of racial discrimination.  Also not having many friends you can talk can bring you down.  Rejection is painful, but the only remedy is fellowshipping with God and how much He loves.  His love pours out like a river.

The Bible says love God, love your neighbor as you love yourself.  Well I love God for sure.  I love my neighbors and fellow brothers and sisters.  I have an issue with neighbors and their pets.  Whenever I feel antagonism I start writing IFY – I forgive you.  One time I actually wrote it 490 times.  I love to talk and I will go up to anyone and start talking.  I begin by asking what their name is.

I love myself as much as I love my neighbor.  I see myself as the bride of Christ, and that brings me worth.  I feel loved and appreciated.  I encourage people to make goals about what reasonable improvements to make.  But the best you can do is take it day by day, and realize how much you are loved.

Selfishness is gratifying your flesh and not having a generous spirit.  I have given away so many things and some of which I could give back.  My relative says I used to be selfish, and I didn’t even realize that.  What I tend to do is put other people higher than myself so that I don’t get an over inflated ego.  I am sure we may become selfish at times.  But don’t fret, God still loves. you.

The McCarthys, Wasabi, Joey and John

For all of you that don’t know, I am an avid Joey McIntyre fan, and when I found out that McCarthy’s was coming on last night at 8:30 pm which was past my curfew, and I have to watch these lengthy comedies that come before that really don’t add any value to my tv repotiore (spelling).

Now it was reported that Joey’s mom Kay died of Alzheimer’s it really touched me because imagine you hear “OKay” It can I imagine hurt so you might need therapy, but that’s just my guess.

Well I needed some therapy and I went to UTHCPC. Don’t even ask.  Well when I was there I received sushi from my parent’s visit and I ate some sushi that had wasabi, and I was in need of some cold water right away, So, when I saw the scene with sushi and wasabi, I was ROFL

John is the guy who lifted a sofa to show off his muscles, and I was trying to test to see if I had any chemistry with him, so when we were playing dominoes – He got 150, but one game I was giving him Step by Step clues and I don’t know if he got them or not.  I played connect 4 with him, and he let me win a couple of times.  Why I like 4 is Step 4 :JOEY: I can give you more.   That has become my motto – Step by Step

The many suitors and retraction

I wrote a while back saying that I did’t believe that Christian women shouldn’t watch Soap Operas.  I take that back.  I confess that sometimes even I watch General Hospital.

Any way my life is more interesting.

For those that know me know that I have been in love with Joey McIntyre even to the point of joining his last name with his.  He is singer for New Kids On The Block.

There are three men I would like to tell you about.  First there is Robert Allen Green and we had chemistry like we looked at each other and there was what seemed like love.

It was like the verse in Song of Songs – “You are the only one my dove.”

Then there is Dr. Ben, I was sitting on the hospital couch, and he turned and looked at me, right when I was reading “Good Shepherd” – so immediately there was a connection.  I tried to get him introduced to my dad, he said he had a meeting.

Then there is John, no last name.  This guy had a build similar to JJ Watt, He had the precious blue eyes.  He can color.  We played Monopoly together and connect four.  He also lifted up a very heavy couch over his head.  I asked him if we were boyfriend and girlfriend – he said we were just talking.  I don’t know if I will see him again, but if i do – best wishes.

I am back – weight loss

Hey guys I’m back, finally got my password straightened.  Well my nails are orange glitter in one hand and purple nail polish.

I also weigh 116 lb.  I have a food review:


I HOP near Hobby Lobby in Houston, TX.


Pumpkin cheesecake pancakes – it melted in my mouth.


Get it while you can.