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Trials, Troubles, Pain, and Sickness means God knows you have the character to make it through

Whenever you go through trials, trouble, pain, and sickness, God knows that you have the character to make it through.  He is using it as an opportunity to challenge you to push through and fight through the thoughts, and negative emotions that weigh you down.  If you’re a born again believer, God has put the seed in you to go and bear fruit for the Kingdom of God, so that you can be a bold conqueror and when you get there you can say, “It was the LORD God who got me through this thing, and it was He who equipped me to face this battle.”  If you are going through sickness, pain, struggle, that means that you are not alone, and God knows your ready for it, He knows you can handle it because He will not give you more than you can handle.  Sickness, Trouble, pain, and disease do not come from God, and is not in His nature.  He loves His children and does not want to see harm to them.  In fact, when you go through these things, it is like the father or mother who gives his child to the doctor to get vaccination shots to give them immunity to the disease.  They are injected with the disease and then they built up an immunity to it.  In the same way, Jesus Christ, is our vaccination, because He has given us His Blood for the disease.  So now it takes His Blood working through your spirit man, and going through your soul and your body to make it whole so that it can be used for his glory.  God does not abuse His children.  He loves them.  He cares for them deeply, with an ever consuming Jealous passion, that keeps Him wanting to protect you, and keep you from harm.

16 Therefore we do not lose heart, but though our outer man is decaying, yet our inner man is being renewed day by day. 17 For momentary, light affliction is producing for us an eternal weight of glory far beyond all comparison, 18 while we look not at the things which are seen, but at the things which are not seen; for the things which are seen are temporal, but the things which are not seen are eternal. 2 Corinthians 4:16-18

I believe that the reason that we go through most of the stuff that we go through is that the Word of God may become real to us and that we may apply it in our lives so that we may be a blessed and living example of the glory of is His Kingdom on our lives.  He trusts us so much with His Holy Spirit, that He has given us all strength to get through any situation, or else we wouldn’t be here.  It is our faith that needs to be affirmed of this.  We need to grab hold of and seize our faith in Jesus Christ, and His Word, so that it becomes life to us.  It becomes life to all that hear it, so that it becomes life to all our flesh.

Most of our battles, if not all, come from our mind, which has thoughts that are destructive to our bodies.  When we have these thoughts, and we do not renew our minds with the Word of God – the seeds that give life and Word to those to hear and obey the Word then we will delay the seeing of the glorious blessed life that He has planned for us.  The problem is that many of us want to obey God out of fear of judgment, or choose to accept Christ out of a fear of going to hell, when actuality, there’s a different purpose and reason to God.  He wants to reveal more of His loving nature then to take out His rod in anger.  It’s like if your child did everything that you ever wanted, was kind and obedient, and loving, and went out of his/her way to show you how much they loved you, wouldn’t you just get a kick out of it?  Wouldn’t you be delighted in that child?  If your child did whatever you told them, but never wanted to spend any time with you, and told people, you were mean, crushing, judgmental, and you were harsh and strict, instead of loving, wouldn’t it grieve you even if you knew that was not your heart when you disciplined the child.  Yes there are some unruly children, but even Supernanny shows us that there are better ways to teach children good behavior that will last them longer, then abusing them.  That’s really not the nature of God.  Depending on how unruly the children are there are different ways of dealing with them because they have different natures, you want to show them, the love and the compassion that you have for them.  If your child is crying all the time, and upset all the time, after a while you become divided in your heart with compassion for the child and irritation because you find that all they do is cry, and you just want them to grow up and be mature so you can talk to them and tell them what’s on your mind, so that’s why you have conversations with God.  God doesn’t want to go to Him and grief and suffering, crying out all the time.

That’s what brings into mind these Scriptures from Isaiah 22:
Therefore I say, “Turn your eyes away from me,
Let me weep bitterly,
Do not [e]try to comfort me concerning the destruction of the daughter of my people.” – This is God crying for Jerusalem

12 Therefore in that day the Lord [m]GOD of hosts called you to weeping, to wailing,
To shaving the head and to wearing sackcloth.
13 Instead, there is gaiety and gladness,
Killing of cattle and slaughtering of sheep,
Eating of meat and drinking of wine:
“Let us eat and drink, for tomorrow we may die.”
14 But the LORD of hosts revealed Himself [n]to me,
“Surely this iniquity shall not be [o]forgiven you
Until you die,” says the Lord [p]GOD of hosts.

To know who this is talking about – we turn to John 8:

39 They answered and said to Him, “Abraham is our father.” Jesus *said to them, “If you are Abraham’s children, do the deeds of Abraham. 40 But as it is, you are seeking to kill Me, a man who has told you the truth, which I heard from God; this Abraham did not do. 41 You are doing the deeds of your father.” They said to Him, “We were not born of fornication; we have one Father: God.” 42 Jesus said to them, “If God were your Father, you would love Me, for I proceeded forth and have come from God, for I have not even come on My own initiative, but [l]He sent Me. 43 Why do you not understand [m]what I am saying? It is because you cannot hear My word. 44 You are of your father the devil, and you want to do the desires of your father. He was a murderer from the beginning, and does not stand in the truth because there is no truth in him. Whenever he speaks [n]a lie, he speaks from his own nature, for he is a liar and the father of [o]lies. 45 But because I speak the truth, you do not believe Me. 46 Which one of you convicts Me of sin? If I speak truth, why do you not believe Me? 47 He who is of God hears the words of God; for this reason you do not hear them, because you are not of God.”

This Jerusalem at this time in the Scripture has not accepted Jesus, that’s why they are like, “let’s eat and drink, for tomorrow we die.”  The iniquity they had was building a man-made fortification system.  We trust in man-made things to protect us, instead of the LORD GOD who will protect us.  This is a strong statement of Jesus for the Jews in John 8:47 – He said that they are not of God. So how can that be, that they believed in YHWH, and were still not of God?  They were following man made traditions, and they still wanted to kill Jesus.  The enemy had taken what was originally intended for good, and perverted it, like has been done in many Scriptures, and even in our thought life when we read the Scriptures, and even when we don’t read the Scriptures.  I would have to speak to a rabbi to find out what the Jews thought about Isaiah 22.  What was their sin, that was so unforgiveable?  Their unbelief was one, and sometimes as Christians we do that too.  We believe God, but do we really believe God?  Will we fight for what we believe?  Will we fight for the Truth?  Will we proclaim the Gospel on the mountain tops and shout it in the valleys?  We have lost our first love and lost the passion and love for Christ because we have been so provoked and consumed with fear, and reverance of God, that we lose sight of His nature, and His kindness.  We lose sight of the fact that He is not angry with us, and does not look down at us with a magnifying glass and say, “Who can I fry today?”  That’s not the nature of God.  That’s what Jesus is talking about.  Don’t think just because the Bible says something, that the way we interpret it, or the way others interpret it is what it really means.  In the temptation in Luke 4, the enemy used the Bible to attack Jesus and make Him try to commit suicide, and to test His powers.

1 Jesus, full of the Holy Spirit, returned from the Jordan and was led around [a]by the Spirit in the wilderness 2 for forty days, being tempted by the devil. And He ate nothing during those days, and when they had ended, He became hungry. 3 And the devil said to Him, “If You are the Son of God, tell this stone to become bread.” 4And Jesus answered him, “It is written, ‘MAN SHALL NOT LIVE ON BREAD ALONE.’”

5 And he led Him up and showed Him all the kingdoms of [b]the world in a moment of time. 6 And the devil said to Him, “I will give You all this domain and [c]its glory; for it has been handed over to me, and I give it to whomever I wish. 7 Therefore if You [d]worship before me, it shall all be Yours.” 8 Jesus answered him, “It is written, ‘YOU SHALL WORSHIP THE LORD YOUR GOD AND SERVE HIM ONLY.’”

9 And he led Him to Jerusalem and had Him stand on the pinnacle of the temple, and said to Him, “If You are the Son of God, throw Yourself down from here; 10 for it is written,

‘HE WILL COMMAND HIS ANGELS CONCERNING YOU TO GUARD YOU,’

11 and,

‘ON their HANDS THEY WILL BEAR YOU UP,
SO THAT YOU WILL NOT STRIKE YOUR FOOT AGAINST A STONE.’”

12 And Jesus answered and said to him, “It is said, ‘YOU SHALL NOT PUT THE LORD YOUR GOD TO THE TEST.’”

13 When the devil had finished every temptation, he left Him until an opportune time.

First, he attacked His appetite, and His identity.  Then he attacked His authority and power of influence, and finally he attacked His identity and His life using the Word of God.

We go through the same thing.  The enemy has no new bag of tricks, it’s all the same, it’s all been done before.  There’s nothing new under the sun.

Sometimes we go through things just to be a blessing to others, so that when others see what we’ve been through they can rejoice and say God is Good all the time.  God is definitely good all the time, and He wants us to know that He accepts us and loves us and cares for us, and desires to delight in Him.  So when we begin to see the fullness of Christ, we will change…but first we have to change our perspective on God’s character, that God in both the Old Testament and New Testament is a kind, gentle, steadfastly loving, with loving kindness God,  then He can give you the stamina to be able to push through whatever it is that you need to go through.  Most Christian people are struggling with not knowing who God is, and because of that they don’t know how to make it when times get hard.  They think that God does not love them, that He doesn’t care for them, but the Truth is that He does.  He cares because He is the great shepherd, the one who loves His people, and that means all who believe in Him.  He loves even those that don’t believe in Him because He wants them to come to Him.  So cast your fears and cares aside, and lean on the God that loves you so much that He sent His Son, Jesus Christ, to die for you!!!  And now He’s the only One who is still alive!!!

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When you have failed a test

This blog posting is kind of like a follow up to “When everything falls apart”, and “The Tests of Life”.  We know that when students go through tests at school.  Have you ever known you were going to have a quiz, but you didn’t have time to study for it?  You just go to sleep and hoping that everything comes by “osmosis” or something like that?  Well God tests and sometimes He chastens us too, and sometimes this test may be foretold in advance [i.e. Jesus wilderness, and the Israelite wilderness] We go through difficult things, and it is about our attitude primarily and what we do and say during these times of chastening and testing.  Sometimes we do not know what direction it is going to come, and we know that the enemy goes around like a roaring lion seeing who he can devour, but we also know God has His plan, which is different for testing.

Women, not intended to stereotype, in general tend to be more emotional and they tend to cry more and be more expressive in their emotions.  Sometimes we find women yelling, and getting angry too, but as believers it is hard to control these emotions without surrendering to the Holy Spirit.  But whether you are a woman or a man, you do get tested by the Lord, and even through the best of intentions you try to obtain a peaceful attitude through the Holy Spirit, but it is the times when you are spiritually undernourished that you go through certain things and you cannot seem to find your way out of the wilderness experience that you are in.  One thing to understand is that God is through His Holy Spirit giving you a slight nudge in what to do in the beginning, and if you don’t listen to that nudge, which is like Question No. 1, and then He gives you another nudge, but this time this one may be a little bit softer than the other nudge.  That is like Question No. 2.  Then by now if the principle of chastening, and disciplining has come into picture, there will you will start receiving a wrong answer mark or an “X” by your “Questions”, and that begins the consequences of sin.  The good thing about the “X” is that if you realize it soon enough you get it erased, and just for another opportunity to do the same question again.  But if you you continue to answer questions wrongly, then the “X”‘s get more and depending on how much you have prepared for the test, and how much you ask the Teacher to help you, you yourself will get up getting upset and failing.  The Good News is that you always have a do over, but you have to ask the Teacher to help you study and you have to ask for tutoring and to go in for “Office Hours”.  The Good News is that the Office Hours are 24/7.  This Teacher is Jesus and through the Holy Spirit He teaches you, but it will have to be at a time, when He is not grieved by you getting upset with Him for the difficult test.

The problem is that most times we don’t depend on the Teacher alone, but we depend on other people, and trying to please them, we try to please other people.   If Job actually listened to the advice of His friends, would He have been actually able to hear from God?  Maybe, because the Word does say, “God works out all things for good to those who love Him and are called according to His purpose.” But this was a test.  For Job, it was unexpected, but for some people, God may tell you, “Be watchful, lest you enter into temptation”, and if you don’t listen you are going to end up in trouble.

Part of the problem, is that we don’t have the wisdom our own to figure out the problem, so that’s why we are supposed to go to God, and you may just want someone to pray for you, and they go about giving their advice and telling you how to solve the problem.  Sometimes there are times where people have been thrown everything, which comes there way, and they think as Christians, “I should have been able to handle this better”, and that’s where pride comes in.  Because it is not us, but Christ who lives in us that equips us to handle problems, and because when we don’t listen to the small nudgings, we get overwhelmed, over stressed, and overburdened by our problems.

Hebrews 12, my favorite Chapter says –

For consider Him who endured such hostility from sinners against Himself, lest you become weary and discouraged in your souls. You have not yet resisted to bloodshed, striving against sin. And you have forgotten the exhortation which speaks to you as to sons:

“My son, do not despise the chastening of the Lord,
Nor be discouraged when you are rebuked by Him;
For whom the Lord loves He chastens,
And scourges every son whom He receives.”

If you endure chastening, God deals with you as with sons; for what son is there whom a father does not chasten? But if you are without chastening, of which all have become partakers, then you are illegitimate and not sons. Furthermore, we have had human fathers who corrected us, and we paid them respect. Shall we not much more readily be in subjection to the Father of spirits and live?10 For they indeed for a few days chastened us as seemed best to them, but He for our profit, that wemay be partakers of His holiness. 11 Now no chastening seems to be joyful for the present, but painful; nevertheless, afterward it yields the peaceable fruit of righteousness to those who have been trained by it.

12 Therefore strengthen the hands which hang down, and the feeble knees, 13 and make straight paths for your feet, so that what is lame may not be dislocated, but rather be healed.

So basically what it says here is that you have to endure the chastening, and some places says rejoice, because you are not illegitimate, and you are sons.  So basically when you have a pop-quiz/test like this, and you fail, realize that it’s ok because even though you will have to go through test again, you are building up your relationship with the Holy Spirit to the level of intimacy because in truth, we all fall down, and especially when you are pursuing the path of Holiness, there may be so many things that come against you, but if you trust in God, then there will be a peacable fruit of righteousness and to forgive yourself and to accept His grace, which calls us unto redemption.  We are not guided by our feelings, and we may have bad days, and areas of struggle, and areas of weakness, but God is equipping us, the one’s whom He loves to be a bride ready to be established for His Kingdom.

If you need to repent for failing a test here is a prayer for you:

Heavenly Father,

Please forgive me, I’ve run a muck today, and not listened to Your voice, and obeyed Your commands.  I acted impatiently, hastily, and not out of love, but I really need You to forgive me, and cleanse my heart with Your Blood and to give me a clean heart and a new heart and to pick up the pieces, dust them off, and continue to spin that Potter’s wheel.  I thank You that You are still with me, and that You are teaching me and training me to be a glorious vessel for Your Kingdom, and I abide in Your Truth and wisdom, to know that You are guiding my path.  Help me to be able to discern Your voice more clearly from now on, and to make wise decisions to pass the tests and to surrender my emotions to you, so that I can have the complete wholeness of Body, Mind, Spirit, that you have promised in Your Word.  Thank You Heavenly Father.

In Jesus Mighty Name I pray,

Amen.

God is faithful to answer the prayers whatever they may be, if you continue to wait on Him.  He will always be with you.

 

Prayer for people with heart problems

Heavenly Father,

I pray for all the people that are plagued by sickness and disease.  Please remove the sickness from them and apply the blood of Jesus over their lives so that they may be healed and made whole.  Your word promises that we are healed by the stripes of Jesus.  For those suffering heart problems, let your miracle working power be in their lives and transform the damage that has been done and let them be free from any harmful medications LORD GOD.  Reach out Your merciful peaceful gentle kind hands and show pity and touch them and make them whole.  Let them know that they are not alone, and even though everything may be coming against them let them know that You have not forgotten them, and that they are on Your mind and heart even though everything in the world is getting ready for You to come.  Teach people the right way to eat and exercise and what nutrition that they need to receive, and allow them to learn how to take care of the temple, and do not chasten them quickly for disobedience in regards to eating.  Be gracious Lord and merciful, and show Your everlasting favor upon the people.  Clear their arteries and remove any inflammation in their bodies.  Give them their heart’s desire because Your Word says that those that delight in the Lord, will get the desires of their heart.

Thank You Lord for Your Awesome Mighty Miracle working hand!!!

In Jesus Mighty Name I pray,

Amen.

Noise Pollution, Sleep deprivation and Searching for peace among the storm

Here’s a Scripture verse compilation that really touched my heart these past few days:  “23 Now when He got into a boat, His disciples followed Him. 24 And suddenly a great tempest arose on the sea, so that the boat was covered with the waves. But He was asleep.”

Now when many people talk about this passage they talk about how Jesus said that we should not be fearful and have more faith to face the storms of this life.  What gets to me is that there was a hurricane, or tornado around Him, and He was able to sleep.  After days of not getting adequate sleep I find myself marveling at the characteristics of Jesus and the Holy Spirit that I would like to attain in my own life.  When I wake up I feel tired and not refreshed, but in hopes of a new day I begin my day, but on the weekends when I just want to relax and find some sleep to make up for many days of having my sleep interrupted I hear everything from the dogs barking, the helicopters and airplanes, the boom boxes of the car stereos, the motorcycles, and even when I put my earplugs on I hear the sound of my own heart beating.  What am I supposed to do then, tell God to make my heart stop beating so that I can have some sleep?  As you can tell I am a very very light sleeper.  I would say I have new parent syndrome, but I don’t think it was this bad when my little sister was born – I was still able to sleep.

We are often told that the Holy Spirit is a like a dove, and that it is so sensitive, that when you make the slightest movement it goes away, but what gets to me, after I heard from a television pastor making this revelation known, that Jesus who had the Holy Spirit in Him, was not moved from the peace of the Spirit by all the things like babies crying, foul odors, and all the situations and circumstances around that the Holy Spirit in Him, He was not moved.  That same Holy Spirit is in those which believe.  So if we have that same Spirit, then I can find a few reasons why people like me have not been able to sleep.

One of them is that in times when I chose not to sleep at the time I was supposed to and I slept later like past midnight to 2 or 3 am and didn’t think it was going to catch up with me, well I was wrong.  Lack of discipline in a certain area can lead to consequences later on.  Another thing is that when you are struggling with issues so seriously and deeply and maybe even worrying about whether or not you are going to get to heaven, or be cast out, then that worry is from the devil.  The Lord says we should not worry, but take everything in prayer and supplication and make our requests be made known to God and it says simply that those that believe will receive salvation.  I have looked at the commentaries for Luke 13:23, where the person asks will few be saved to Jesus, and the whole thing there was that don’t worry about whether few or many will be saved, just make sure you yourself will be saved because your own curiosity can hurt you.  Another thing is overstimulation.  This society in the modern age is full of overstimulation with all our gadgets, cellphones, computers, and other technologies, as well as things like coffee so we are “wired” all the time.  We thought this was a thing only for today’s college students, but it seems more and more people are getting wired like this instead of taking time to just “Be still and know” that He is God.  I have tried many times to “Be still and know” just to have some kind of rest and peace, but every body everywhere with all kind of electronics are making all kinds of noise.

It didn’t seem to be so bad before, but now even after 10pm to Midnight there is no quiet.  Psalm 23 says “He leads me by the still waters and by the quiet stream”.  This reminds me of a cartoon I used to watch on Animaniacs where Dot used to go around saying, “All I want is quiet, quiet, quiet, this I can’t deny it”  and then when it was quiet she said, “Why’s it so quiet?”  The world has seemed to have gotten louder and louder.

Recently I had a situation where I was praying for some healing for my ears which were experiencing hearing loss.  I know I appreciate all that I have, but when I want to go to sleep and I hear all these noises I find myself almost wishing I couldn’t hear and that is a very dangerous place to go.

I was reading a article that the Pope has been going through some exhaustion and feeling very tired for quite awhile, and I even though I am not Catholic, I can see that there is something going on here.  I’ve seen the people in Israel in the news and some of them seem like they haven’t been getting much sleep.  What we need here is the peace of the LORD.  We need the peace of knowing that no matter whatever our circumstances we can find rest in the LORD.  Part of the problem is that people have not been observing the LORD’s Sabbath.  Now I know it is debatable on exactly which day it is, but in any case there should be a day where everyone rests.  In the Old Testament, they couldn’t as much lift a pencil up on the Sabbath.  This time is not be used for mowing the lawn, or doing things that would not allow other people to rest.  Even the animals were supposed to rest during this time.  When Jesus came and was accused of doing things against the Sabbath it was because the Pharisees had taken it overboard, and they were trying to prevent Jesus from doing any good during that day.  These days we use the weekend to take care of household chores and things like that.

In the Jewish customs it used to be very different.  Men would go out 6 days a week and find food for their families and take care of the cattle.   The women would stay home and take care of the house and the children.   During the times of the Apostles they knew their main work was to spread the Gospel, but he still worked hard to be worthy of the food that was brought to him.

I don’t know if it is just me or not, but in these times people seem to be running around like chickens with their heads cut off and being very busy and even Christians don’t seem to enjoy the simple things because they are too warn out by being Martha’s and even the ones that want to be Mary’s can’t seem to be Mary’s because satan has tried to steal the love that Jesus has so freely given to give a sense of fear, guilt, and condemnation.

Matthew 11:28-30 says “28 Come to Me, all you who labor and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest. 29 Take My yoke upon you and learn from Me, for I am gentle and lowly in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. 30 For My yoke is easy and My burden is light.”

Heavenly Father,

During these times of the hustle and bustle of everyday life and for all the people that worry about finding jobs and making an income and surviving during these hard times, help them find rest for those souls.  These weary bodies that are worn out by stress, or anxiety, or just things of everyday life that have gotten them bogged down, I ask You to let them be able to relax and enjoy life to the full until it overflows.  Let the people not worry no matter what goes on around them.  Let them not sense any unrestlessness, and let them have a wave of calmness wash over them just as Jesus did in the boat when all the storms of life were around Him.  For all the sirens that go off each day, heal the people, put off the fires, protect the victims and find justice for them.  We repent as a people for turning away from you and not obeying your Word and your commands to love each other and love ourselves.  We repent for not obeying Your Sabbathtime of Rest.  Help the people find rest in knowing that you have provided all their needs.  Forgive us all with Your abundant grace.

In Jesus Mighty Name I pray,

Amen.

 

What’s so bad about Yoga? (revised)

Many people do Yoga as exercise, but do you know where it actually comes from and the meaning of the exercise of Yoga?

http://www.dailymotion.com/video/x5ty5q_whats-wrong-with-yoga_webcam

DISCLAIMER:  I decided to preface this blog with a disclaimer that says that some people may not be ready to receive this.  I ask that you pray about it and let God help you decide what’s right in your heart.  This is supposed to be a form of meat to some people and to other people it might seem to be a form of milk, but whatever your level of faith is that is what you have to operate in.  But I encourage you to grow to keep an open mind, and be teachable to new levels of understanding and revelation.  Read the whole article with wisdom and don’t overgeneralize the message that it is trying to teach.  I am trying to show my understanding of the fine line between holiness and light, and darkness and deception and for those not ready to receive it I pray that someday you might be able to receive it.

The above sites were some of the sites I referred to when I first began to realize the term of Yoga.  Some of the links may be dead.  Did you know that the word “Yoga” means to be “yoked”?  And did you know that when you are doing yoga you are essentially yoking yourself with the hindu “creator of the world.”  We know that there is only one Creator and His name is YHWH, pronounced “YAHWEH”.  Anyone other than that (except for Jesus because He is included as part of YHWH”) then you are dealing with someone who is of darkness.  “God is light and there is no darkness in Him at all” [1 John]

I have some Christian and non-Christian friends and relatives who do or have done yoga.  For the non-Christian people who do yoga, their ignorance leads them to be exposed to the powers of darkness, but for the believers who know and intimately desire to be with Jesus and to be in Heaven and yet yearn to “live a healthy lifestyle”, but don’t know what powers they are being subjected to when they participate in yoga.

I know someone who is a nonbeliever to this day that practices yoga, and was practicing yoga until they got struck with cancer.  They didn’t know why they got cancer, and they left a pretty healthy life (they ate right, they did exercise (yoga), but they were committed to doing yoga.  Now I am not saying that yoga in itself caused the cancer, but it left a door open.  As a nonbeliever who becomes excused for their lack of knowledge, it might be a disgrace to God, and if He leads them to Him, then His blood will cover their sins.  But for a Christian, that is supposed to live a sanctified and holy life and to be intimate with our Creator, Jehovah, YHWH, Father God, why would they want to be yoked with someone who is not the One that created them?

In essence when you are doing Yoga, you are being submissive to and accepting Hinduism and denying Christ. Why is that?  Because there is a spirit behind it.  The stretches you do in yoga line up the “chakras” in the part of the body, which are circles in the body, and cause that part of the body to be submission to the “hindu creator”, who we know is not the Creator of the Bible.  I may even be as bold to say that hindu creator is actually satan.  That we are submitting ourselves to the powers of darkness, if we decide to line up our body, and yoke up our soul to the one that is not from above.

Now I may have tried yoga once as a Christian not knowing what I was doing when I was doing it, but I can testify that the hindu belief system is demonic in nature.  I used to be a hindu, and there are strong ties between the realm of the mind and the powers of darkness beheld in the mind when you practice hinduism, paganism, occultic, or any other belief that does not come from Jesus.  When you have held these ties for a long time, and held to these beliefs for a long time, you become soulish.  For more on that, I might have to talk about the three parts of a person (body, soul, and spirit).  Think of them as three gears- left to right.  We can get stuck in the first gear sometimes,  and then when we try to go to the the third gear we get stuck in second gear.  That’s where things like music have a large role.

During this time, in which today is actually Rosh Hashanah, a Jewish Holiday, but has value in Christianity, the emphasis is on Holiness and cleansing and getting your heart right with God.  When you get your heart right with God and walk a path of holiness your life becomes different.

Some people focus on yoga for exercise and losing weight, but there’s nothing like good old fashioned cardio,  lifting weights, and the best walking if you are able.  Besides yoga is really hard.  Why would you want to put yourself through that when 1) there are other ways to exercise 2) it’s not going to bear any fruit in the long run?

Now I have to mention breathing – I know there is a yoga-based breathing technique for relaxation – actually there’s more than one.  But the real breath in the Bible, comes from the Holy Spirit, or the Spirit of God, called ruwach.  So when God put His breath in us when He created us as humans, we were given a breath of life.  But when we became born again, we inherited a new breath of life, which is His Holy Spirit.  So when we breathe, we should put this in mind – “This is the air I breathe, Your very presence living in Me.” [from the song]

As far as relaxation goes, nothing can give us peace like Jehovah Shalom.  He even was peace for Gideon when he was afraid, “24Then Gideon built an altar there to the Lord and called it, The Lord is Peace.” Judges 6:24

What does the Bible have to say about meditation?  Again, one of my favorite verses, Philippians 4:8 8For the rest, brethren, whatever is true, whatever is worthy of reverence and is honorable and seemly, whatever is just, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely and lovable, whatever is kind and winsome and gracious, if there is any virtue and excellence, if there is anything worthy of praise, think on and weigh and take account of these things [fix your minds on them] or meditate on them.” (emphasis mine)

You make think that you need to relax, need to de-stress, need to get in shape, need to be worry free, but I am telling you that there is nothing so big that our God can’t solve and that your answers must be found in yoga, but your answers are actualy found in Jesus.  To find that peace that can only be found in Jehovah Shalom, the God that is of peace.  When you don’t have that peace you go looking in other places to find it.  As far as exercises go, I know that prayer alone cannot help you lose weight, but using godly wisdom when it comes to exercise and discerning the spirits when it comes to exercise, nutrition and living a healthy lifestyle, can lead you to fulfill the deep desires of your heart.  And if you don’t believe in Christ, then I pray that someday you’ll see what can fill that void in your life.

In my revision of this article I’d like to thank someone for oversimplifying the answers when it comes to things like exercise and faith.  Sometimes it takes a stretch of faith to walk the line of holiness and that takes a deeper level of maturity and a walk with Christ.

Many people getting sick – an attack?

Sorry I have not written much this week, but I got this bad case of the stomach flu.  I am better now.  I notice that there are a lot of people getting sick lately.  We were talking about this in prayer meeting – one of the pastors felt completely drained, one of the members lost his appetite.  One of my fellow bloggers, got sick, and then another fellow blogger got sick, and apparently all are doing well now.  What was it this past couple of weeks that let so many people get sick?  We said that satan is scared at church and as soon as we came home and over 20 June bugs/ little locust looking like bugs – outside of our house keeping us from going in and I just thought there is definitely some spiritual battles going on right now.

What is the best way to equip yourself for battle – be armored with the Word of God.  That’s pretty much what I have been learning from the Holy Spirit when it comes to spiritual warfare and during my time of involuntary fasting.  I spent my time seeking as much from God and his Word as possible and I got many revelations, some of which I might share later.

Waiting on God is really important too.  That’s one of the areas I struggle with the most.

Psalm 25:5
Guide me in Your truth and faithfulness and teach me, for You are the God of my salvation; for You [You only and altogether] do I wait [expectantly] all the day long.

Psalm 62:1

FOR GOD alone my soul waits in silence; from Him comes my salvation.

Most people don’t have enough time to sit there and wait in the day, but for myself I have a lot of time, but I find all other ways to seek God instead of just waiting in silence.  Mornings are hard for me because I am so distracted with all the things I have to get done in the day.  So I choose night time.  The past few days I have actually been hearing from God, but being too tired to take notes.

I also stopped vegging out on the couch and watching television.  Now I spend most of the time on the computer finding sources God’s Truth from other resources.  Whereas before I would spend maybe a few hours of day hunting and gathering for spiritual food, now I spend at least 6 hours a day meditating on God’s Word by studying it, searching it, meditating only things that are noble, and praise worthy.  I used to be so obsessed with losing weight and I think I even wrote on here that I wanted to be free of not having to worry about counting calories, losing weight, and what to eat.  Then I had the attack, which was a blessing in disguise because it gave me the time to focus more on God and not on the things of this world.  I have gotten to a place where I like the way my body looks.  I happy just to be able to eat at all.

God is teaching me about faith because I went through a time period where all I saw was wickedness in myself and in God’s Word pointing to wickedness and I realized that was an accusation.  I know I am supposed to pursue holiness, but I also realize now that it is not going to happen overnight.  I started to listen to preachers who to talk plain sense meanings to the Bible and how to actually apply it in your life hoping that it will make a difference.

I need to go through my mind and unlearn all these things strongholds I have had since before I was a Christian and all these negative self-image issues.  The best way I can do that is by helping others.  In fact my sickness went away when I visited a friend of mine who has not been able to come to church because he cannot walk.

I was so blessed just to see him.  After I came home my sickness went away.

I also found out that laughter is a good medicine.  In Proverbs it says that laughter does your heart merry like a good medicine.  I heard a story of a woman I think she was on Oprah, who was diagnosed by the doctor as having cancer and he started talking about chemo, and before he started talking she left and she went to Blockbuster and started renting all these comedies.  She would laugh when she was watching these comedies.  Three months later she went back to the doctor and he said she had no more cancer.   I was then motivated to find things that would encourage my faith and to make me laugh.

I hope this has been a blessing to you.  Sorry so short.

Learning that God loves you despite what you weigh

You know the post I posted last time where I was talking about talking to my “friend” that was bipolar?  Well that was actually me.  I wanted to have a little more anonymity before revealing that about myself.  Because of having bipolar disorder I have had also had to experience the downfalls of being on medication that makes me gain weight.

I think I was normal weight in Elementary school, but I had to deal with people calling me ugly, and they are even now some of my facebook friends.  I have forgiven them all, but those seeds had their way in shaping my mind.  I was a little bit more developed than other girls my age when I was in 5th grade, but I wasn’t overweight.  I had some self-image and self-esteem issues.  I also did not know how much Jesus was rejected for me and that He loves me and that He died for me.

Then in Middle School I started thinking I was fat because I couldn’t find clothes that fit me in the store, and I wasn’t as physically fit as the other girls in my school.  I couldn’t do as many crunches; I couldn’t run as fast or as long, (probably because of my flat feet), and I couldn’t play the sports as well as everybody else.  It was about that time that I started becoming a vegetarian, even though I am not one anymore.  I never knew how to eat healthy, and I didn’t like my family’s cooking.  I wanted to eat American.  So while I was in 7th grade I ate an apple everyday for lunch and that’s it and I would be able to fit into those size 10 jeans.  Size 10 was super small for me, and I was pretty thin at that size.  In 8th grade I was still pretty thin, but because my stomach was not super flat and because I had a little bit of a pouch of a stomach I still thought I was fat.

In high school, I had to deal with so many physical issues including two bouts of Gastroentiritis, and bipolar disorder that I wasn’t primarily concerned with my weight.  I had so many things going on, and I always HATED P.E. It felt like torture.  I was probably a little overweight, but I was way out of my league compared to everyone else.  While I was in my last year of high school I started to put on weight (balloned up to 185) and I didn’t even realize why- my bipolar med.  I joined Jenny Craig and lost like 25 pounds.  Then I lost like 35 more doing the treadmill until I went down to 125 and was able to fit into my size 10 Jeans. Then I went manic like crazy.  Long story.

It wasn’t until after 1999 that my weight started to come back again.  My face became rounder.  It happened all of a sudden.  It was about the time that I started an atypical antipsychotic.  That medicine gave me Diabetes within two years.  I am not exactly sure how much I weighed in 2001 [my salvation year], but at that time I started to eat meat because I found out that because I couldn’t eat as many carbs, and because of the thyroid condition I had I was very limited on what I could eat so I chose to start eating meat.  For a long time I was denial about diabetes and addicted to carbs and sweet food.  But I think part of the problem was that I was on a Dopamine and Serotonin uptake inhibitor so my brain wasn’t sending my the right signals telling me I was full.  The other part was me.  I was trying to fill a void that I could only fill with a relationship to Jesus, but since I wasn’t part of a church I wasn’t getting the spiritual food I needed so I turned to physical food.  I was part of a sorority and Bible Studies that had some love and truth, but I hadn’t sunken into the meat of the gospel and started going to the Word myself.  But that turning to food for comfort and seeking after love from my earthly father started a vicious cycle of trying to lose weight and gaining weight and back and forth to this day.  In the middle of it all I had a coma.  No one really knows why. I suspect it was the chastening of the Lord. It just happened and resulted in my kidneys shutting down and a treatment of dialysis while I was unconscious.  It was after that I had to learn the hard way to get closer to God and to change the way I thought about food.

Before I get into my whole life story here – I want to mention that it has been really hard for me lately while I have been going up and down in my weight – I eat healthy 90% of the time, but when I don’t have time to plan, or when I am bored and because I don’t really sit and have meals with my mom, dad, and sister, I end up getting into vicious cycles of eating too much food because I am trying to fill a void and trying to submit to the flesh and instead of to the Spirit.  But it is a hard battle the people that are obese have to go through.  For me the hardest thing is when I get over 200 pounds I start having problems walking.  Being able to know the difference between actually eating for hunger, and eating for something else, takes a lot of wisdom.  At times I feel like I am fighting very hard and not seeing results so then I have to have faith to see beyond my circumstances, and because James says, “Faith without works is dead,” I have to go through the effort of planning my meals, and going to the gym, and doing cardio at home to get the desired results.  All the time I want to forget about all this.  I want to not have to think about it anymore.  I want to not have to think that I have to take bipolar meds, and that I don’t look like the way I look when I am at a certain weight and that I have a hard time walking if I get beyond a certain also associated with other health risks.  I am really trying just to make it to 195.  Every time I try to lose weight and commit to something it falls short and  I pray about it.  Maybe I don’t spend enough time in prayer, but most of my day is spent cooking, eating, and vegging out in front of the tv and eating.  I can’t play any sports or have no coordination to dance.  Those are the days that I really feel down like today and I sometimes think about the verse – Luke 12:24

“24Observe and consider the ravens; for they neither sow nor reap, they have neither storehouse nor barn; and [yet] God feeds them. Of how much more worth are you than the birds!

It also talks about not to worry about anything in that passage.  So here I am fretting about how much I want to lose weight and what I am going to eat that God says not to worry!  So then that makes me want to give up on my meal planning and calorie counting and just keep my eyes on Jesus like Peter did.  Oh, how I desire to be able to not to live in a body where I had to struggle like this.  So then I ask God sometimes, “Why?”  And here’s what He says, “I created you this way so that you would come running to me with your problems and seek after me.”  I also read that in a book somewhere.  I know that I am a glutton and unworthy of His love and what He did for me, but I am so glad that He accepts me flaws and failures and wants to put His circling arms around me.  With this I know that God loves me despite what I weigh and because of that I can love myself.