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Tough Love

We think that love is always easy.  Sometimes we are deceived into thinking that we don’t have to change.  Sometimes we need that extra push so that we may grow and that requires.

When I was relearning how to walk again, my relative used to go and because she loved me tell me to go and make me do it.  She used to take away all helping devices and she used to push me to learn not to depend on the crutch that I carried.

Many times we have been to a gym, and when we go to a gym, we learn to exercise, and if you have a personal trainer, – depends on the trainer, but a lot of trainers will make you push and push until you feel like you are going to die.  That is discipline.  The more out of shape you are the more discipline will be required.

Sometimes God will show tough love.  It’s not that He doesn’t love us, but He wants us to grow so He’s giving us that discipline to help us grow.

Endure hardship as discipline; God is treating you as his children. For what children are not disciplined by their father? If you are not disciplined—and everyone undergoes discipline —then you are not legitimate, not true sons and daughters at all. Moreover, we have all had human fathers who disciplined us and we respected them for it. How much more should we submit to the Father of spirits and live! 10 They disciplined us for a little while as they thought best; but God disciplines us for our good, in order that we may share in his holiness. 11 No discipline seems pleasant at the time, but painful. Later on, however, it produces a harvest of righteousness and peace for those who have been trained by it. – Hebrews 12:7

I am coming back to that verse as a gentle reminder of what we must go through as Christians.  We will all go through some kind of testing to make sure that we are growing.  We will have all of our idols removed from us, until it is Jesus we seek and find and knock.  It may require a period of fasting or it may require setting your heart to pray, or it may require having control of your emotions instead of your emotions controlling you, but you have one thing to remember that despite the tough love, God loves you and He still cares for you but He doesn’t want you to stay where you are.

 

 

The difficult task of knowing when not to speak

In the Bible the book of James talks about how we are to bridle our tongues.  It says how can blessings and cursings come out of the same mouth and that the tongue is uncontrollable.  Jesus said to have our speech be seasoned with salt.

There was an experience that happened with my relative a while back.  I said something where I basically just stuck my foot in my mouth, which is just an expression for saying the wrong thing, and she gave me the silent treatment for a long time.  She was an unbeliever so she had not grasped the concepts of forgiveness, but in the process she taught me a very important lesson, which as of late I seemed to have forgotten.  In the process she taught me how to respect her and to be sensitive what I say to her.  I loved my relative and I did not want her to be mad at me and hoped that she would eventually forgive me and she did.  God is the same way and His anger can be kindled so much more, but sometimes we don’t realize that.  We kind of take Him for granted and not give Him the respect that He deserves.  Sometimes we don’t give God the same respect we give to other people, and even when we are mad at other people, we don’t give them the respect not to talk about them behind their back.  I know my relative can have a bad temper at times, but God can have a temper too.  I knew my relative loved me, but she was just angry with me for awhile.  God is the same way.

Isaiah 54 says,

“With a little wrath I hid My face from you for a moment;
But with everlasting kindness I will have mercy on you,”
Says the Lord, your Redeemer.

I know we should never do anything to make God mad at us, and we should never never never do that, but if in the current moment we may think that God is mad at us, it is ok, because He still loves us, and it says that He chastens those He loves.  If He loves you He chastens you.  He is not going to stay angry forever.  He may just distance Himself from you for awhile for one to see how much you will go after Him, and how much you will realize the way you hurt him, and how He feels about the situation.  We are so caught up in how we feel about what’s going on in our lives.  We are so concerned with all the circumstances, and our reactions to it, that we forget that God has a heart too, and we need to be sensitive to it, and not try to dishonor it.  I’m not saying we’ll be perfect all the time, but through life we’ll learn lessons, and learn how to trust Him, and how to depend on Him, so that we can learn how to bear fruit for the Kingdom of God.  So even during these times if it seems like your walking through darkness, or that it may seem like there are no answers, God is still there, and He’s still waiting for you to turn around.  He’s waiting to pick up all the pieces of your broken life.  He’s there to restore the damage that’s been made out of your life and to give you beauty for ashes.

Sometimes when we speak out of anger or frustration or because we just don’t know how to handle the situation we are facing, and we haven’t exactly learned how to keep our tongue under control, there will be times when we’ll be reminded of what God feels like.  We don’t like it when people are frustrated and angry with us, so then when shouldn’t be angry or frustrated with God for all the things going on.  He’s in control, and so many times in our lives we’ve tried to take control and not to submit to authority, and not to discipline ourselves in various areas.  I am not even saying that I have mastered anything in application in my life, but it’s only through the grace of God that I am able to share with you all on this journey.  We need to stop beating ourselves up for our mistakes and even the things we may say out of our mouths, but before we do that we need to take time to think and make decisions on how we are going to try to work on improving our attitudes.  We get so caught up in religious activities that we don’t actually take time to think and see how we are going to apply all that we have learned in the Bible.  We have to pray, and read the Word of God, but on days when it may be even hard to get out of bed in the morning then we need to know what kind of power we have waiting inside of us to make life for us, and how we can take Biblical examples of guarding our mouth, and ask us to show us His heart.  How many days would you like to go without God speaking to you?  Not very long I’d suppose.  So in that time more than really praise or worship or any other thing that we’ve tried to seek God with, we need to ask God, and to think how we can change our mindset.  It’s one thing to read the Word of God as just words, stories, and narratives, but it’s another thing to make it an application.  Start with one thing and then see what else you can improve on.  Some people that have an issue with their mouth, like gossiping have an issue with forgiveness, which is an area where we ALL need to work on.  If you have mastered the area of forgiveness then you are miles high then most of us Christians.  Most Christians are biting each other’s heads off all the time, and it’s so sad in the Church.  There are times when we’ve had people we respected lie to us, and we forget that we’ve lied ourselves, so that needs forgiveness.  We’ve had people come and say the  wrong thing at the wrong time and not shown compassion towards us, but then we fail to see how we’ve not been compassionate toward them in their hour of need.  There was a song by Mariah Carey called, Love takes time, which I don’t usually condone of secular music, but there are songs out there that really speak to me.  It goes something like “Love takes time to heal when you’re hurting so much”  Depending on what has happened in your life and how you’ve gone through life, I’m sure you’ve had to learn how to forgive and may be still learning when not to speak.

Sometimes when we at our weakest moments, we just say things, and we can all learn a lesson from Jesus when He was on trial he just was silent, and they didn’t like it, because they wanted Him to say something to convict Himself.

There was a story of a television show where there was a man who was in jail and when he was in jail, they would question him, and all he did when they questioned him he kept silent.  I think there was a Biblical principle behind that somewhere.

There’s always wisdom in knowing when not to speak and to speak.  So we should learn the principle of when to keep silent.  There’s another secular song called “Enjoy the Silence”.  We must choose words carefully, and when we are not perfect, then we should keep things to ourselves.

 

Understanding God’s Purpose; Discipline and Self Control and Consistency

This video puts the focus back on to God in a distinct way where it brings light into understanding what the purpose is for God, discipline and self control and consistency – areas that I need to work on that we all need to work on in the body of Christ.  Sometimes we think it is all about us, even me included, but when it is really about Jesus, we shouldn’t be afraid of what people think of us and be bold and confident of what God’s plans for us are.  The focus has to be about Jesus and God’s purpose and what He has planned for us, and as part of being part of the body of Christ we need to be reminded of our crown.  As some of you know I have issues with weight loss and that it was very difficult for me to hear, but to be an example so that I don’t become disqualified I needed to be reminded of this and I think there are some people that really need to hear this message.  I know that I am working on and I have improved a lot, but the focus is that we are running the race to receive an imperishable crown.  Putting this video up was like crucifying my flesh, but even more is the actions that follow we will be more the crucifying the flesh.  But remember one thing when listening to this video, remember it is not through our own self that we become disciplined, self control, and consistent, but it is through Jesus and allowing Him to work in  us and surrendering to God’s will and purpose  and to be molded into the image of Jesus Christ.  Self-Control comes through the Holy Spirit and intimate time with Him.  By the way this video is not complete.

 

When you have failed a test

This blog posting is kind of like a follow up to “When everything falls apart”, and “The Tests of Life”.  We know that when students go through tests at school.  Have you ever known you were going to have a quiz, but you didn’t have time to study for it?  You just go to sleep and hoping that everything comes by “osmosis” or something like that?  Well God tests and sometimes He chastens us too, and sometimes this test may be foretold in advance [i.e. Jesus wilderness, and the Israelite wilderness] We go through difficult things, and it is about our attitude primarily and what we do and say during these times of chastening and testing.  Sometimes we do not know what direction it is going to come, and we know that the enemy goes around like a roaring lion seeing who he can devour, but we also know God has His plan, which is different for testing.

Women, not intended to stereotype, in general tend to be more emotional and they tend to cry more and be more expressive in their emotions.  Sometimes we find women yelling, and getting angry too, but as believers it is hard to control these emotions without surrendering to the Holy Spirit.  But whether you are a woman or a man, you do get tested by the Lord, and even through the best of intentions you try to obtain a peaceful attitude through the Holy Spirit, but it is the times when you are spiritually undernourished that you go through certain things and you cannot seem to find your way out of the wilderness experience that you are in.  One thing to understand is that God is through His Holy Spirit giving you a slight nudge in what to do in the beginning, and if you don’t listen to that nudge, which is like Question No. 1, and then He gives you another nudge, but this time this one may be a little bit softer than the other nudge.  That is like Question No. 2.  Then by now if the principle of chastening, and disciplining has come into picture, there will you will start receiving a wrong answer mark or an “X” by your “Questions”, and that begins the consequences of sin.  The good thing about the “X” is that if you realize it soon enough you get it erased, and just for another opportunity to do the same question again.  But if you you continue to answer questions wrongly, then the “X”‘s get more and depending on how much you have prepared for the test, and how much you ask the Teacher to help you, you yourself will get up getting upset and failing.  The Good News is that you always have a do over, but you have to ask the Teacher to help you study and you have to ask for tutoring and to go in for “Office Hours”.  The Good News is that the Office Hours are 24/7.  This Teacher is Jesus and through the Holy Spirit He teaches you, but it will have to be at a time, when He is not grieved by you getting upset with Him for the difficult test.

The problem is that most times we don’t depend on the Teacher alone, but we depend on other people, and trying to please them, we try to please other people.   If Job actually listened to the advice of His friends, would He have been actually able to hear from God?  Maybe, because the Word does say, “God works out all things for good to those who love Him and are called according to His purpose.” But this was a test.  For Job, it was unexpected, but for some people, God may tell you, “Be watchful, lest you enter into temptation”, and if you don’t listen you are going to end up in trouble.

Part of the problem, is that we don’t have the wisdom our own to figure out the problem, so that’s why we are supposed to go to God, and you may just want someone to pray for you, and they go about giving their advice and telling you how to solve the problem.  Sometimes there are times where people have been thrown everything, which comes there way, and they think as Christians, “I should have been able to handle this better”, and that’s where pride comes in.  Because it is not us, but Christ who lives in us that equips us to handle problems, and because when we don’t listen to the small nudgings, we get overwhelmed, over stressed, and overburdened by our problems.

Hebrews 12, my favorite Chapter says –

For consider Him who endured such hostility from sinners against Himself, lest you become weary and discouraged in your souls. You have not yet resisted to bloodshed, striving against sin. And you have forgotten the exhortation which speaks to you as to sons:

“My son, do not despise the chastening of the Lord,
Nor be discouraged when you are rebuked by Him;
For whom the Lord loves He chastens,
And scourges every son whom He receives.”

If you endure chastening, God deals with you as with sons; for what son is there whom a father does not chasten? But if you are without chastening, of which all have become partakers, then you are illegitimate and not sons. Furthermore, we have had human fathers who corrected us, and we paid them respect. Shall we not much more readily be in subjection to the Father of spirits and live?10 For they indeed for a few days chastened us as seemed best to them, but He for our profit, that wemay be partakers of His holiness. 11 Now no chastening seems to be joyful for the present, but painful; nevertheless, afterward it yields the peaceable fruit of righteousness to those who have been trained by it.

12 Therefore strengthen the hands which hang down, and the feeble knees, 13 and make straight paths for your feet, so that what is lame may not be dislocated, but rather be healed.

So basically what it says here is that you have to endure the chastening, and some places says rejoice, because you are not illegitimate, and you are sons.  So basically when you have a pop-quiz/test like this, and you fail, realize that it’s ok because even though you will have to go through test again, you are building up your relationship with the Holy Spirit to the level of intimacy because in truth, we all fall down, and especially when you are pursuing the path of Holiness, there may be so many things that come against you, but if you trust in God, then there will be a peacable fruit of righteousness and to forgive yourself and to accept His grace, which calls us unto redemption.  We are not guided by our feelings, and we may have bad days, and areas of struggle, and areas of weakness, but God is equipping us, the one’s whom He loves to be a bride ready to be established for His Kingdom.

If you need to repent for failing a test here is a prayer for you:

Heavenly Father,

Please forgive me, I’ve run a muck today, and not listened to Your voice, and obeyed Your commands.  I acted impatiently, hastily, and not out of love, but I really need You to forgive me, and cleanse my heart with Your Blood and to give me a clean heart and a new heart and to pick up the pieces, dust them off, and continue to spin that Potter’s wheel.  I thank You that You are still with me, and that You are teaching me and training me to be a glorious vessel for Your Kingdom, and I abide in Your Truth and wisdom, to know that You are guiding my path.  Help me to be able to discern Your voice more clearly from now on, and to make wise decisions to pass the tests and to surrender my emotions to you, so that I can have the complete wholeness of Body, Mind, Spirit, that you have promised in Your Word.  Thank You Heavenly Father.

In Jesus Mighty Name I pray,

Amen.

God is faithful to answer the prayers whatever they may be, if you continue to wait on Him.  He will always be with you.

 

Loving like Jesus Loves pt 2

For the people that didn’t see my first blog posting here is the link –

https://kingdomofgodservantv4.wordpress.com/2012/02/19/loving-like-jesus-loves-pt-1/

 

To recap – I briefly introduced a comparison of Jesus portraying love like it mentions in 1 Corinthians 13:4-8 and how we can incorporate those qualities in our life as a means of self-examination.

Now I will continue where I left off, and I pray that this blog posting will touch your hearts because I think it is an area we all need to grow in.

1 Corinthians 13:5-8

(Love) -it takes no account of the evil done to it [it pays no attention to a suffered wrong].

6It does not rejoice at injustice and unrighteousness, but rejoices when right and truth prevail.

7Love bears up under anything and everything that comes, is ever ready to believe the best of every person, its hopes are fadeless under all circumstances, and it endures everything [without weakening].

8Love never fails [never fades out or becomes obsolete or comes to an end].

Love takes no account of the evil done to it or it pays no attention to a suffered wrong – It was very interesting that God challenged me in the same area that night I posted the last sermon.  I am not going to go into what happened, but it was a small thing, and my actions showed that I hadn’t yet learned what I was preaching through blog, but at least I was aware that this was an area where I was failing to meet God that night and I was able to ask for forgiveness in that area.  When I think about this passage, I think about two people in particular.  One is Jesus, who I mentioned before, and the other one is Paul.

Here is Paul in the Message translation talking about the woes of sufferings he had to endure from 2 Corinthians 11 –

3-27I’ve worked much harder, been jailed more often, beaten up more times than I can count, and at death’s door time after time. I’ve been flogged five times with the Jews’ thirty-nine lashes, beaten by Roman rods three times, pummeled with rocks once. I’ve been shipwrecked three times, and immersed in the open sea for a night and a day. In hard traveling year in and year out, I’ve had to ford rivers, fend off robbers, struggle with friends, struggle with foes. I’ve been at risk in the city, at risk in the country, endangered by desert sun and sea storm, and betrayed by those I thought were my brothers. I’ve known drudgery and hard labor, many a long and lonely night without sleep, many a missed meal, blasted by the cold, naked to the weather.

28-29And that’s not the half of it, when you throw in the daily pressures and anxieties of all the churches. When someone gets to the end of his rope, I feel the desperation in my bones. When someone is duped into sin, an angry fire burns in my gut.

How many of us can say we even have been through all that and Paul’s anger was not against those other people, but he was angry that still people would not believe the reason why he was sent.

But no one takes the place of Jesus, and what He went through for us.  We get a traffic ticket – we blame the cop.  We get into an accident we blame the other driver.  Imagine all those women that are being raped and abused everyday and the torture that they have had to go through and if it weren’t for people like Joyce Meyer and Paula White showing them that through Christ we can learn to forgive to that level.  To pay no attention means to not even consider it.  That’s why in Romans 8 it says, “The sufferings of this present time are not worthy to be compared to the glory that is about to be revealed in us.”

Love does not rejoice in injustice or unrighteousness, but rejoices when right and truth prevail:  God is a God of Justice.  When people were looking at the Casey Anthony trial, there were varying opinions and people were taking side, and the news was spreading like wildfire.   People were looking for justice to prevail. You may ask, “how can God take sides?”  That’s a part of our limited understanding of God that we can comprehend with our minds, but as children of God, we are His favorite ones, so He will always take the side of the favorite one, but we have to have compassion on the other people as well, and pray for God to give them grace, and a second chance because we too were once sinners, yet He died for them as well.  When Barabas was chosen instead of Jesus, the world made it’s choice, and it was the last chance and the final call for the Jews to come to repentance, but because they didn’t and God knew they wouldn’t Jesus was laid up on the Cross be a slaughtered lamb for the sacrifice.  He did it out of His mercy and Grace and for the sake of Justice to see that all the wrongs would be made right.

Sometimes Christians see things happening around them to wicked people and they think, “Oh they deserved that.”  It’s sad to see that even in churches, there are Pastors who are sinning and we blame the media for picking on them and singling them out when in fact they were the ones sinning.  This was a topic discussed in one of our Bible studies.  The world has sort of twisted justice to take the form of social justice and civil rights to the extreme where they are trying to get unrighteousness to be justified.  Some of the things that they are doing and even if they are  Christian, only with a repentant spirit and realization of God’s jealous love for them, will be able to see what true righteousness and justice is all about.  God’s kind of justice and righteousness is different because is based on the truth, and that Truth is solely based on God’s Word and revelation of the Holy Spirit.

Love bears up under anything and everything that comes:   We have it so easy in America and in developed countries, where we have luxuries at our disposal.  Even the internet is a click away.  We did not have to struggle the same way that the first century Church did, and maybe that’s why we’re not seeing the same kind of Revival and Power in the Church because people have settled for Microwave Christianity.  Just 30 seconds to 5 minutes and you’re done.  No more waiting for the stew to boil and wait on the Holy Spirit.  We are caught in a cycle of do, do, do, and less be still and know because we are so caught up in our jobs, and our daily ‘idols’ and ‘gods’ that we refuse to see God for who He truly is and what He has called us to do.  So if we have a headache, take some tylenol.  If we have physical pains take painkillers and go see the doctor.  We would rather go see the doctor then go see God, the Great Physician and Healer.  When Asa was diseased in His feet, and He did not seek the LORD.  Here’s the passage. I think it’s important we take a look at it.

11 Note that the acts of Asa, first and last, are indeed written in the book of the kings of Judah and Israel. 12 And in the thirty-ninth year of his reign, Asa became diseased in his feet, and his malady was severe; yet in his disease he did not seek the Lord, but the physicians.

Who is to say that if king Asa had sought the Lord in the time of His malady instead of turning to the physicians, then the Lord would have had mercy on him, and healed his feet?

So to get this verse to take it to another level and correlate it back to love.  How much are we willing to do for love?  How far are we willing to sacrifice for love?  Whether it be love for God or love for neighbor.  We find it easy to sacrifice when it comes to love for our self, but actually when we sacrifice out of love for others, it takes it to another level.

We are called to love no matter what the cost.  But are we doing that?  Are we loving no matter the cost?  I sometimes have this struggle that I want to show Agape for other people, but sometimes because of the physical limitations of my body, I feel that I am not equipped enough to handle whatever needs to be done, so in essence I stay in my comfort zone, and that’s a dangerous place to be in.  We are to go and get out of our comfort zones.   How many times have you tried to go to your neighbor or kids down the street and minister the gospel to them?  What have you gone out of your way to love someone and do something for them?

This love, love for God should bear up no matter what happens.  Let us all strive to reach that kind of love in our lives.

Love believes the best of every person- This is a very nice thing to know that Jesus believes the best out of us, and that He wants to see us succeed and prosper in all that we do, say, or think.  But are you pointing out other people’s flaws instead of looking at the best of them. I think this is a flaw of human nature, that people tend to look at other people and see what’s wrong with them, instead of believing the best of every person.  We should look at every person and think that they are a too good to be true story in progress.  Even when telemarketers call, do we have this kind of love, not to think that they are pushy, and unscrupulous and greedy, but actually to see the best in every person?   Anne Frank said, “I think basically people are really good, down at heart.”  Anne Frank was a young girl who died in a concentration camp during the Holocaust and she wrote a diary of her life in The Secret Annex.  Most of us under terrible and abusive circumstances would refuse to believe the best of every person.  We would be bitter and resentful.  Some people might think that it is being naive, but actually it is the opposite.  The Bible says we are to be cunning as serpents and as innocent as doves.  This takes wisdom.

Love’s hopes are fadeless under all circumstances – This means that even if you don’t have what you desire right now, you still believe and hope in the Truth of God’s Word.  Hope is a desire or expectation for a certain thing to happen and it is supposed to be fadeless.  I actually have a funny story about my experiences with hope.  I sometimes go by the expression, hope for the best, and expect the worst, but that is a contradiction in terms based on the definition.  So sometimes I get on the scale, and I say, “I expect that I have gained weight, but I hope that I have lost weight.”  Then I get on the scale and then I lose weight and I am so “happy”.  Do you know what that was there?  That was false hope.  That was hope based on circumstances meaning that my happiness is dependent upon the weight on the scale.  True hope means that whatever goes on, whether my weight goes up or down, I will not lose my joy.  Joy is not dependent upon circumstances.  Circumstances means things going on around you that you have little or no control over.  As Christians we have hope in our salvation, and this means no matter what happens we don’t lose that hope.  Hope also means to trust or to anticipate.  We are to trust Jesus and anticipate good things for our lives.  That’s why God says His plans for you are not to harm you, but to prosper you, but to give you a future and a hope.

Love endures everything [without weakening] – This one really got to me.  Try lifting a 200 pound weight without weakening.  Tall order right?  Well spiritually we are supposed to be athletes and soldiers and we are supposed to endure without weakening.  Hebrews 12:11 has a good verse on the subject, “No discipline is joyful, but is grievous and painful, but in the end produces peacable fruits of righteousness to those that have been trained by it.”  When you discipline yourself it is like you are chastening yourself, but that produces righteousness after successive trials, of going through obstacles.  Soldiers have to go through tremendous and vigorous training and that makes them stronger, and stronger to the point that even the weak one becomes strong.  A team is only as strong as it’s weakest player so as the Body of Christ, we should be strong enough to endure whatever comes our way.  The Bible calls us to pray that we be able to endure the time of trouble, so that we can be strong in that day.  Jesus says whoever endures to the end (endures in His faith), will be saved.  It means not giving up, even when things are hard and difficult, even when obstacles come your way.  There is so much God has in store for us, if we could only open our eyes and see.

8Love never fails [never fades out or becomes obsolete or comes to an end]- This is the best one.  The best way not to fail God and to fail His tests is to be consistently acting out of the fiery passion of Agape love that God has for us and for His people.  The reason why this kind of Agape Love, never comes to an end, is because it is carried to eternity.  In the rest of the passage in 1 Corinthians 13 it says that you can prophecy, speak in tongues, but you don’t have love then you are nothing but a sounding brass and clanging cymbal.   This kind of love covers a multitude of sins, and if you have this kind of love then you can fulfill the law because the law was made as an expression of love and Jesus nullifed the law through His work on the Cross.  When you love someone you cannot sin against them, and when you love God you cannot sin against Him.  When you love yourself, you will be able to receive the love that God has for you and take it to the next level and desire to become holy like Him because His grace cleanses you of all unrighteousness.

This is my prayer that all of us desire, yearn, and seek for, and strive after and go for and pursue this kind of love:

Many waters cannot quench love,

Nor can the floods drown it.
If a man would give for love
All the wealth of his house,
It would be utterly despised.

Heavenly Father,

Stir up in us the passion, the love, the zeal, the fervor, for your kind of love so we can reach the nations.  Take us out of ourselves and our own comfort zones and let us live out daily for the love transformation in our lives.  Change our hearts, and make us hungry for Your Word, Spirit, and Power to be made manifest in our lives and the loves of others.  Let us be like living vessels without any bitterness and let us live out the calling of 1 Corinthians 13.  Lord, teach us and guide us with Your Holy Spirit how to live out the daily lives each day.  Show us what we are supposed to do.  Lord God, Thank You for being the Lover of our Souls.  Forgive us if we fallen away or drifted away from your love and awaken the love.  Awaken the love in all of us.  Stir it up Lord.  I seal this prayer with the Blood of Jesus as you help each of us this day and everyday.

In Jesus Mighty Name I pray,

Amen.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Another blow in the face/Remember Hebrews 12!!!

Well it’s 2 am Sunday night, and I think this time I’ll actually apply Hebrews 12 (endurance) when it comes to going to sleep.  But I didn’t follow that lesson today.  For the past few days God has really called me to Hebrews 12, which talks about endurance.  When I was doing the exercise on Friday I was ignoring it, and I don’t remember when else this week, [oh, yeah, it was making the ground turkey, which took me 1 and a half  hours] but I just kept coming back to that verse over and over again.

Today my dad was going to a funeral and he said somebody might be coming over on Monday (I don’t consider the day changing until the next day until after 6 am), and I knew I had so many things to do.  I have been really struggling with planning and cooking my meals so that the nutrition helps me lose weight and I spent all my energy doing that along with chores like cleaning the house, when the Word says, to “Seek first the Kingdom of God and His Righteousness and all will be added unto you.” [Matthew 6:33]  I realized that I was becoming a Martha (caught up with daily tasks) instead of a Mary (concerned about being around the people). [Luke 10:40]

I don’t know what time it was in the evening probably around 7pm and I felt so tensed, stressed out that I couldn’t physically move and I was lying down.  I didn’t know what to do.  I tried to pray, I couldn’t pray.  I just couldn’t fight any more and that’s when I forgot Hebrews 12.  So after a short pep talk with my pastor, I was like, “Oh, yah, duh, Hebrews 12 (Endurance/Discipline).  “You have not endured to the point of death like Jesus had.”  [v.1-4] “For the time being no discipline brings joy, but is grievous and painful. (but yields righteousness if endured)”. [v. 11]  My pastor said that the enemy knows our weaknesses, and if I try to give up and not fight or endure now, then what happens when things get really bad during the last days?  Will I be able to endure?  I also have the Holy Spirit inside me and that gives me strength.  That’s what I got from our short conversation.  I was also saying something about the atmosphere and I felt like there was something surrounding me that was making my tension worse, but that was just an excuse.

So I got up turned on the Christian Radio station that plays mostly hymns and I let it work through if that was the atmosphere.  Now I had some work on me to do.  I figured to start out small.  I  started by cleaning out a few sections of the bookshelf and making more space so at least I didn’t feel like my house looked hoarders.  I read parts of a book that had some useful tips on things I could include on my meal plans.  Also I got a brilliant idea, which came from God, that I should probably go and make my Turkey Burgers then, and make my Ground Turkey at the same time.

That was a stroke of genius that I have to thank God for.  So I did those things without too much stress, but my feet were tired.  I was happy that I was done, and I wouldn’t have to worry about that on Monday.  Then I could focus on more important things (by then I found out that no one was coming over) such as making a meal plan on Monday, getting a couple of things from the store on Monday and just taking more time to seek Him.

They sang my favorite worship song today “The More I Seek You.” at church.  Now it comes into perspective.  One thing that I am afraid of and worried about God forgive me, is the change of church to Saturday.  I know it has it’s shares of adjustments, which I am not going to go through now, but somehow I know it will work out.

I also learned that knowledge of the Word is not enough if it doesn’t not change your character.  It has to make you more consecrated and holy.  You should experience peace and joy through the day and you should be a pleasant person to be around and the light within your family and/or community.  I am asking God to help me calm down and experience the Living Word in my Life [In Jesus Mighty Name I pray]

After all I do have the Holy Spirit within me.  Shouldn’t I be reflecting it’s character?  Shouldn’t I be seeing fruits?  If not then I know there’s some things wrong that I need to change.  I know there are so many things I could be doing to be a better example of the presence of the Lord working in my life, but the Lord told me I need to take one day at a time because I have been trying to plan the whole world and it is just not within my capacity because I am simply human.  But it is the Holy Spirit who gives me the strength to go on and endure.  So I come humbly before Him to ask Him to make real to me, “I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me”.  Philippians 4:12 In Jesus mighty name I pray, {Amen}

Hebrews 12 and Discipline/Endurance

Today I am going to talk about one verse, which I wish had come to remembrance today when I was trying to do my endurance cardio workout.  I got on the bike frustrated that I had to do 45 minutes on the bike like my trainer had told me to do at home.  Since my regular 700 Club, didn’t record, I didn’t have a valid distraction.  I thought I had been going for a while, and then I looked at the clock on the bike, and it said 3:50 meaning that I had [only] gone 3 minutes and 50 seconds so then I started to get really emotional and crying because my head hurt, my back hurt and my leg hurt before I had even gone on the bike and I didn’t know how I was going to endure the remaining time and I wanted to give up, but my trainer told me this is what she wanted me to do and it would benefit me the most.  I wanted to do the easy 30 minute high intensity interval training, but this is not what I was supposed to do.  So then my sister talked me through this time and I had forgotten everything I had written about in the previous post about endurance from Hebrews 12:1-3 – you can go back to that.  It’s one thing to have knowledge of God’s Word, but to go and actually apply it in your life is a whole other ball game.  So after I was done without my workout I went back to look at Hebrews 12, and I found this –

11For the time being no discipline brings joy, but seems grievous and painful; but afterwards it yields a peaceable fruit of righteousness to those who have been trained by it [a harvest of fruit which consists in righteousness–in conformity to God’s will in purpose, thought, and action, resulting in right living and right standing with God]. (Amplified)

There were two things that my sister talked about and she never reads the Bible, that discipline (in regards to a grueling endurance cardio workout) is all about enduring through the tough things and motivating yourself to go on and pushing on despite all the pain.  Sure there are times when you feel like dying, but then you make yourself go through it and in the long run it will bring you to a place where you can be mentally strong and not just physically strong -[and even though she didn’t say this – it also makes you spiritually strong.]

What I now realize and hope I can remember the next time I have to workout, is that it will have a peaceable fruit, after having going through grueling and painful discipline.  I’m not sure if in this context the writer of Hebrews was talking about chastisement of the Lord, which is kind of like a spanking, but the same principle can be applied to the discipline it takes to go through any kind of training.  So my sister and I talked about “The Biggest Loser” again and now I recall that it is the type of discipline for training that you have to go through when you want to reach a goal.  The Navy Seals have to go through an intense version of this not to mention the whole military.

For myself I want to reach a goal of a healthy weight and a slim physique, but I also want also to mentally ready to be able to fight the enemy in any situation.  Often we let ourselves fall victim, and that is what I did today.  My mom called me a baby because I was crying, but actually it is true, when you take on that victim mentality it means that you are not more than a conqueror and that you believe that you are not strong enough to do what you need to do as much as you don’t like to do it.  In fact the more you don’t want to do something is probably the reason why it is the more you should do it.  I’m preaching to myself here.

The greatest test of faith is when you have to endure through discipline and training when you are by yourself.  When you are by yourself you will have no one to depend on except for yourself and the Holy Spirit.  There is something to be said for the people that are non-believers that can rely on the strength of will to get through difficult training and disciplining without realizing God is there and helping.  If you can depend on God when there’s absolutely nothing else and no one else to depend on that it will make you that much stronger and it will build your character so you can be a blessing to others during difficult times.  Just look at Jesus – He actually died on the cross and He had no one standing up for Him – Some of us think we are going to actually die at the thought of doing exercise and giving up chocolate, pizza, and soda – not that I eat that – but it is actually makes you stronger.  They say that “Whatever doesn’t kill you makes you stronger.”  So exercise for most people won’t kill them, but having a victim mentality will.  The Bible says that “whoever endures until the end will be saved” (don’t know which verse).

For most if not all of my life I have been surrounded by people, and when I was not I became very depressed.  But I found that even in times when you are surrounded with a lot of people you can still feel alone unless you realize that the Lord is with you and has not forsaken you – (also from Hebrews) 13:5. So now I am constantly surrounded with at least one person and I have learned to cherish that time alone, but for some reason that principle didn’t apply to me when I was working out today.

I guess the Word that God has for me to share is that whenever you feel like you are about die because you cannot go through something and that you don’t have the strength to make it and you feel like you are in hell, just remember that it will be worth it because painful and grievous discipline brings about peaceable fruits.  Just like having a baby, I guess!!